Love - Hate, Same thing right?

I hate my daughter.  Yes, you heard me right.. I hate her. Now before everyone goes all judgmental on me, let me clarify... Do I love her? Oh my GOSH, more than I could ever say. Do I LIKE her? Yes, she is smart, funny, charming and beautiful. If more people had her personality, I would have more friends. So why, do you wonder, do I hate her? Good question and the answer is...because of me. A few of my awful genes embedded in her tiny body during conception and didn't mix with my husbands. Ohh how I put stock in my husbands genes diluting all of mine but some got through. This tiny, stubborn, condescending, judgmental, bitch of a streak in that girl that sends me over the edge! My grandmother has it, my mothers sister has it, my mothers sisters daughter has it, my mother had it, I have it and NOW... SHE HAS IT.  Well to say the least- when our streak's flare up on the same day, well, that equals the statement, "I hate my daughter" and if I let her post, "I hate my mother."

Some of you have no idea what I mean. I understand and I even get that you think I'm a nut job. When I just had my son, I would have had a number of comments for someone saying that, including but not limited to, "If you would get your kid under control she wouldn't drive you so crazy. That poor kid deserves a better teacher!" The answer to my pre Princess self, coming from my post Princess self is this... "Pay back is a bitch and you'll get yours." WAIT! What?... that's not what I would say to me, that's what my mom would say to me... hmmm she must of taken over the keyboard from Heaven. Thanks Mom!! but I guess it's true.

Dear Princess is my payback. In every way that she is wonderful, sooo smart, funny and wonderful, she is my payback. She has been sent here with the tools needed to send me flying up walls and spinning in circles. Oh that girl.

mmmmmm hmmmmmmmmm. Ok, I feel better. I can be a better mom now and the moms who already conceived their paybacks, understand and know I'll be a nut job until my payback has her payback! Oh what a day that will be! I love you my dear, dear Lady!

Promise 16: Finish the chore chart. This is an extension of getting organized.

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