Thursday, March 24, 2011

I'm back - again

Hey M!! I'm so sorry I haven't written.  I really think I have been going through one of those periods I was referring to when I started this blog and said I didn't know if I was bored, lazy or depressed.  I'm not sure I would call it depressed because I don't really feel depressed. In fact, I went to SC and had a great time. It is more anxiety related. I start to worry and feel anxious and it's really all that I can think about.

I stopped writing because I couldn't make room in my brain to stop and think about anything other than what I was worrying about. Let me be clear, my worry is completely self created and usually doesn't have much truth to it. I, for some reason, choose a couple of things and dwell and dwell on them for weeks sometimes.  I couldn't really write because... well I would figure out I'm a crazy lady! haha No really,  I felt to bad continuing to just say 'hi' or a quick I'm pissed off and I wouldn't take the time to really look at the issues and think clearly and articulate it, so I decided to stop writing and worry and feel bad about it instead.

Well, I'm back and going to take a stab at all this again. =)

M, this is gonna sound silly, but it really means a lot to me you're still writing. I don't know, I thought maybe you would stop because you thought I bailed... I didn't even check your message because I felt bad, how silly is that??

Coming tomorrow - a detail account of how it feels to have a resident doctor drain a cyst on your VAG... it's a can't miss!

hmmm promise promise sit down and do some financial planning stuff that is over due for SDNT!

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